I feel like my life is a series of in betweens. I always feel like I am striving for something and doing better then I did but never quite achieve that goal. Stuck in between! I have found myself lately realizing though that maybe it is truly more about the journey then the destination. Now this is not my way out of achieving my goals, but giving myself a chance to learn lessons along the way. I am always so busy worrying about the finished product like raising kids, or events I need to get plan for PTA, or weight loss struggles or money struggles and many more! But I just this summer have started really trying to enjoy the little moments with the girls instead of being consumed with saying please and thank you and growing up to be our next president. And instead of being so worried about the events I have to plan, I am looking at it as making new friends through the process. Some of these people I see myself being friends with even after I am done with PTA. Now when it comes to weight loss struggles I have really had to learn to love myself and realize I am so much more then the size of my body. This has been so hard for me but I am slowly seeing myself as a person of worth. The biggest change in my life this summer is trying to overhaul our finances. We got our selves into some pretty impressive debt but we are on the other side of it now but trying to live within your means is almost harder then getting yourself out of the debt! But I have learned that my life is not about things. When my friends get something I am not jealous anymore but happy for them and happy with what I do have because I am truly blessed! The lessons I have learned from managing our money better are that I can get excited by a sale or coupon! But more then that I can and am satisfied with our life and don't always have to have the latest and greatest to make me complete. This has been a summer of praying that God fills those holes instead of things, or food, or even sleeping or reading not to deal with emotions. And by all means I am not on the other side of a lot of it. But I am stuck in between and I am finally realizing that maybe that is where God wants me to be!
